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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

they're only words.

i don't even know where to go from here, because there's only so much that one person can take, and trust can only go so far. it's not really the trust that's an issue, but the curiosity.

someone sent me a myspace message a couple of days ago, and i shouldn't have deleted it, but i kept coming back to it, and reading it and it needed to be gone.

the username was +, and the hometown was ", Alabama" and they were a Male, 101 Years Old. one of those.

so, the message said something along these lines:

I WOULD CHECK URSELF AND ASK UR GIRL WHATS BEEN GOING ON WITH HER AND A CERTAIN JEREMIAH AKA MOSES. IF U DONT BELIEVE ME U CAN GIVE HIM A CALL AT 3047845566 AND ASK HIM URSELF. THERES NOTHING FOR ME TO GAIN BY TELLING U THIS I JUST THOUGHT U SHOULD NO.

there was a lot more, eh, not a lot... but it was all in caps and had more of a tone that seemed helpful than angry. but that was about the jist of it. i remember the number because i wrote it down, because i was going to call, but called her instead. she seems pretty upset about the whole thing. she says she doesn't even talk to that kid, etc. then i get this tonight:

"DID UR GIRL TELL YOU THE TRUTH?? DONT WORRY IF SHE WONT WEVE GOT SOMETHING TO SHOW U UR CUTE UR SMART U DONT DESERVE THIS"

this shit is so fucked.
is it sabotage? is it a bluff? do i wait to get said information?


either way, whatever they've done, or whatever they're doing, the damage has been done. i'm just so fucked and i want to give up because of some textual words someone has written with little to no information to back it up. yet.


i don't want to do this anymore.

2 comments:

captain self destruct said...

dude, holy shit. what a fucked situation. don't give up on it yet, but here's what I would do:
1. most importantly, see what *they* have to show you. if it's downright proof of something shady going on, then you have something to work with or worry about. if not, then fuck it. message them back or call that kid. only way to find out what the hell is going on. if it's bullshit, call them out on it.
2. there's gotta be a reason *they* are messaging you with this; no one does anything like that without alterior motives... like you said, sabotage. keep that in mind.
3. unfortunately, long-distance relationships almost require some sort of tampering like this by bullshit people. she has enemies, people might be jealous of you and want what you have. stick with it until there's something concrete to actually worry about.

Writer said...

Long-distance relationships don't requite this. Ours didn't. And maybe we didn't get to where we thought we would, but we sure got far.

I'm sorry this is happening. I hope you get it figured out. I know this isn't good for all that's been happening inside of you.

I love you and am thinking about you.
All the way from here.

xo